20 December 2010

So I'm back after a fairly long break. I make no apologies - life gets busy and takes priority over hobbies such as this. At any rate, here's what's happened since the last time I posted: I sprained my ankle, came down with a case of plantar fasciitis (which still plagues me), lost nine pounds in one month and then gained back twelve over the next month and a half.

I now weigh a hefty 202 lbs (and gaining) and it appears my skinny days are well and truly over. I can't lose weight even if I wanted to - or if I do, I just balloon back up as fat as I was before...and then some.

...Which is okay. I'd be horrified if being fat scared me. My only concern is for my health which, with the exception of nagging heel pain, is still good in spite of being "obese class 1".

I am very much enjoying becoming a "fattie". It's impossible not to notice my belly - even when I suck it in. People are making more and more comments about how fat I'm getting (oddly, usually it's people who are as fat or fatter than me). I take every one as a compliment and as a sign that I'm making progress. I'm still not sure how fat I want to get. It's getting easier and easier to raise the bar now that I've got the belly for good. I can still remember, a long time ago, when the possibility of being 200 lbs seemed impossibly huge to me.

13 September 2010

So just a minor note...

I'm not trying to sound apologetic...but...sometimes life gets busy and I don't have the time or the money to keep up the gaining.

I'm doing my best...but to be clear: gaining is something I do for me. It is not my whole life. I guess I'm just vain enough to want to share and blog about it with complete strangers.

That being said...

If the gain's not big enough or fast enough for you...well...too bad.

13 September 2010

So I've had a request for my e-mail. It's on the contact page but I'll put it here as well: roundboy123456@yahoo.ca.

Otherwise not much news to report...

5 August 2010

So I'm finding it downright distracting now that the top of my belly is finally starting to fill out and pressing against my shirts.

I've always wanted a nice round shape and it appears to be happening for me. My profile is widening...but until lately I was still looking somewhat flat. I'm ready to move forward because I'm actually very curious to see where the next 20 pounds are going to end up. This is new territory for me because this is the fattest I've ever been.

I'm going to do some serious eating over the next few days and see what I can do to help this along....

3 August 2010

All right...so I've finally made it! Today for the very first time I've managed to tip the scales at 200 pounds! As far as I'm concerned, I consider myself offically "fat" now. That being said, I look at myself and realize that this is just the beginning. I'm not nearly as large as I thought I'd be at this weight - I definitely want to be bigger. I'm not sure now just what weight that will be at. All I know is that I'm really excited to think of how my belly's going to look after I gain another 50 (or more!) pounds. As far as I'm concerned at this point, I've got a good start but I'm nowhere near as fat as I'm going to be.

9 July 2010

Well that didn't take long. I've managed to put on a few more pounds...this week alone I've gained two or three more pounds (not sure how I managed that...but I'm happy about it).

I currently weigh in at 198 lbs. This is the most I've ever weighed in my life and it's funny that, after all the past bingeing, I managed to get here without even trying.

I plan to take some pictures at 200 lbs (later this week if I keep packing it on the way I've been doing lately).

I was gaining pretty well until April/May...got to the point where it was hard to take a deep breath because the skin on my stomach was so tight. When I lost a few pounds, everything loosened up again. It was a bit of a relief but also disappointing. I don't like the idea of shrinking back to skinny old me.

Now that I'm back up to where I was before, my belly is feeling really tight again. I have a feeling that stretch marks are in my immediate future because I don't plan to stop at (my previous goal of) 200 lbs. The more I gain, it seems, the more potential I see. All I've got going on right now is a good framework. The belly's there, well, started anyway, but it's not nearly as large what I am planning to be.

Somehow I imagined that I'd be a whole lot fatter at 200 lbs (well, 198...though I don't imagine 2 lbs is going to make too much of a difference to my size) . And don't get me wrong, I'm a heck of a lot bigger than I was back when I started this (150lbs in 1995).

I hesitate to name a number or goal now because although I have a picture in my mind of how fat I want to be, I realize now that I have no idea at what weight this will happen for me.

So I guess it's just eat, eat, and eat some more until I finally feel like I'm my proper size.

29 June 2010

No, I haven't died. Or been kidnapped by aliens. It's been...busy.

Anyway, the update is this: haven't been gaining due to a number of rather high profile and time consuming ventures. Things have settled down. I can actually start thinking about gaining again.

On the plus side, though I've only gained one pound in the last little while, at least I haven't lost a whole bunch, which is what I usually do when I stop actively stuffing my face.

Not sure if it's because I'm older or was just less physically active than usual. It's a relief not to have to regain a whole bunch of weight just so I can start to make progress again.

No pictures because there really isn't much to see different yet.

3 April 2010

Holy crap it's April already.

So far it's been: eat, work, sleep...repeat.

I'm not gaining as quickly as I'd like but at least I'm getting bigger.

My belly is tight all the time (not just when I've had a big meal) and I notice it most when I take a deep breath. I'm definitely getting out of shape because stuff I was able to do before with no problem now leaves me winded. I'm trying to get more exercise but am having trouble finding the time to keep up with it. So I'm going to focus at least a little bit on getting more exercise. Should be easier now that spring's here.

That being said, my efforts are paying off. Saw myself in a full length mirror today - my belly is definitely becoming my defining feature. It's one thing to feel how my t-shirt stretches across my middle and a completely other thing to actually see that same phenomenon in the mirror.

18 February 2010

I am, slowly but surely, getting rounder. I am excited by how heavy my belly is now and I'm eating all I can in order to make it bigger. I'm starting to seriously bulge around the middle and all my t-shirts are getting so tight that it's distracting.

The walnuts are helping a lot as is all the chocolate I've been scarfing back. Someone I hardly know saw fit to gift me with many, many pounds of chocolate (something to do with a forklift accident in a warehouse that stores chocolate). I have discovered that there actually *is* such a thing as too much chocolate. So now I'm pacing myself better, at least when it comes to this.

Interesting to note that both white chocolate and walnuts both have more calories than heavy cream...

And today someone remarked at what a "solidly built" guy I am becoming. I think it was a polite way of calling me fat. I think he was trying not to insult me but I was actually very pleased to hear it because it's clear that I'm fat enough now that people are starting to see it too.

28 January 2010

So my first post of the new year!

The last month has been somewhat exciting, though some of it falls into the curse of "may you live in interesting times". Shortly after my last post I came down with a wicked case of the flu. Don't know if it was the Pig Plague or "just" the regular flu. I survived, obviously, but it was a ten day roller coaster ride of nasty that had me flat on my back for about six of them.

Over that ten days I estimate I ate about what I generally eat in any given two days. What saved me from utterly wasting away was that I really didn't get any exercise either so the damage wasn't too bad.

It's weird though - the scale says I've dropped about five pounds but I can honestly say I'm looking and feeling the fattest I've ever been. Shirts that were loose fitting in December are stretching tight across my belly and I'm currently on the search for new pants so I can breathe again.

I chalk up the weight loss to muscle mass loss. I haven't been walking or exercising nearly enough lately so I'm adding that back in. I'm contemplating starting a workout program but that has three drawbacks: I don't have the money or time and also, I think I'd rather just be the rolly-polly kind of fat than the heavy/muscle bear type.

I've started a regimen of large lunches. It requires more planning (usually I just eat whatever junk food is lying around) but the results are quickly speaking for themselves.

I've also discovered that walnuts pack a huge punch, caloriewise. I found a bag that has 393 calories per quarter cup (that's about as many walnuts that fit in the cupped palm of one hand). Keep them by the computer or in the car and it's really easy to snork back 500 calories without even thinking.

I'm working out a formula of cost per pound gained. These walnuts, if I'm doing the math right, cost about $4 for each pound gained. For fat content, they compare to heavy cream but have the bonus of not really needing to be refrigerated, they're a lot more portable, and the fat they contain (at least according to the bag they came in) is a source of omega 3 polyunsaturates.

So basically I'm getting well into obesity, but at least in this small way, getting a little healthier too.

The only drawback is that they taste like ear wax.