Well, the world didn't end on December 21st. Which is a good thing, I guess, because there's still so much more I want to do in this life.
The gaining process, unfortunately, has slowed down substantially over the last week or so simply because I haven't been able to put in the time. It's been a case of work, sleep, repeat. That being said, I'm managing to include an extraorindary number of extra calories wherever I can. I am still managing to gain, albeit slowly because I'm burning so much extra energy right now. I sincerely hope I'll be able to push harder in the new year.
Also, it will be helpful that I'm about to enjoy (and in one case "endure") a series of holiday dinners. Trust me: I'm going to chow down on as much food as I can and then do it all again...
At any rate...best holiday wishes to you and yours...whatever your traditions may be!
Monday, December 24, 2012
Saturday, December 15, 2012
15 December 2012
...And one of the benefits of eating so much chocolate is that I'm in a much better mood than I would be, ordinarily. I consider myself lucky that I'm not sensitive to the stuff like some people. I have a coworker who swears that chocolate causes migraines and wonders how I could eat so much of it. I guess it's a little bonus for me, considering how many truly awful things happen when I eat other things that don't appear to cause any harm to "normal" people (ak! gluten!).
I've also noticed that a lot of the lunchtime conversation appears to be, at least lately anyway, revolving around food issues (mostly about how my female coworkers are chagrined about gaining weight). I don't really hang around women a lot outside of work - I'm not sure if this is normal lunch time talk, or if this is some kind of subtle message they're trying to convey to me that they're noticing my own weight gain and this is how they're trying to broach the topic with me. I've just noticed the topic seems to be coming up more often as I'm getting heavier...though I could just be oversensitive to it right now, that maybe this has been a common theme in the conversation all along, and only now am I just noticing. Overall, I'm kind of an insensitive ass and my response when the topic of weight comes up is to simply offer them some of my chocolate.
Anyhoo...the gain is being incredibly slow considering the sheer number of calories I'm eating every day. Even the fat-augmented shakes aren't really having the impact I'd like just because of all the extra work I've been doing the last few weeks. We're into the Numero Uno busiest time of year at work right now and although I love the overtime pay, I'm not too keen on running off my feet while transporting heavy loads of product all over Hell's Half Acre.
I'm starting to think that after this job slows down (there's 50/50 odds in my mind that I could be laid off after Christmas...or at the very least, have my hours slashed to the point that I'm going to have to find a new job) that I'm going to look for something more sedentary.
Honestly, if I had a desk job and kept up with how much I'm currently eating, I'd be a LOT fatter already. Probably not in as good shape though...and that's a balance point I have to be careful of because as soon as I start to feel unhealthy, I freak out and drop some weight. I know it's completely possible to be heavy and healthy. I just have to find the balance between being fat and still feeling all right.
I've also noticed that a lot of the lunchtime conversation appears to be, at least lately anyway, revolving around food issues (mostly about how my female coworkers are chagrined about gaining weight). I don't really hang around women a lot outside of work - I'm not sure if this is normal lunch time talk, or if this is some kind of subtle message they're trying to convey to me that they're noticing my own weight gain and this is how they're trying to broach the topic with me. I've just noticed the topic seems to be coming up more often as I'm getting heavier...though I could just be oversensitive to it right now, that maybe this has been a common theme in the conversation all along, and only now am I just noticing. Overall, I'm kind of an insensitive ass and my response when the topic of weight comes up is to simply offer them some of my chocolate.
Anyhoo...the gain is being incredibly slow considering the sheer number of calories I'm eating every day. Even the fat-augmented shakes aren't really having the impact I'd like just because of all the extra work I've been doing the last few weeks. We're into the Numero Uno busiest time of year at work right now and although I love the overtime pay, I'm not too keen on running off my feet while transporting heavy loads of product all over Hell's Half Acre.
I'm starting to think that after this job slows down (there's 50/50 odds in my mind that I could be laid off after Christmas...or at the very least, have my hours slashed to the point that I'm going to have to find a new job) that I'm going to look for something more sedentary.
Honestly, if I had a desk job and kept up with how much I'm currently eating, I'd be a LOT fatter already. Probably not in as good shape though...and that's a balance point I have to be careful of because as soon as I start to feel unhealthy, I freak out and drop some weight. I know it's completely possible to be heavy and healthy. I just have to find the balance between being fat and still feeling all right.
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
11 December 2012
So I drove to a virtually inaccessible part of town to a specialty food shop and acquired a gi-normous bag of Callebaut "callets". Really, they're just fancy chocolate chips...but there's a LOT of them. I buy our pet food in smaller bags than this stuff comes in. I got 10 kilograms (22 lbs). It makes sense because I'm already eating chocolate everyday...it's just the lower quality stuff from the grocery store. In bulk, the good stuff ends up costing the same. And now I have a few month's supply. Or less, I guess, depending on how many I manage to eat. I'm going to keep a bowl of them beside the computer and just munch on them whenever I can. Effortless calories that will translate into faster gaining. Gotta love it.
Just ran the data on them: 230 calories for every 40 grams. For you Americans...40 grams really isn't that much...not even a small handful really. I just tossed back a whole bowl of them in about two minutes - I don't know what the actual weight was but I'm pretty sure it was a lot more than 40 grams worth!
The entire bag, if consumed as the part of the calories that are above and beyond my maintenance level, will result in over 16 pounds of extra body mass.
And speaking of getting fatter...as of today I'm weighing in at 195 pounds again. I haven't been keeping track of the numbers very well this month but as far as I can tell, I've managed to gain about 10 pounds back in the last 4 -6 weeks.
I've definitely rounded out more and I can feel everything, especially in my belly area, stretching and filling out again. I've had to move up a belt notch already and still my gut is "muffin topping" over it.
I'm on a roll and I sincerely hope I'll be able to keep up this rate of expansion for a few months at least. I really want to break that 200 pound barrier again and start moving up (finally!) into the substantially larger numbers.
Just ran the data on them: 230 calories for every 40 grams. For you Americans...40 grams really isn't that much...not even a small handful really. I just tossed back a whole bowl of them in about two minutes - I don't know what the actual weight was but I'm pretty sure it was a lot more than 40 grams worth!
The entire bag, if consumed as the part of the calories that are above and beyond my maintenance level, will result in over 16 pounds of extra body mass.
And speaking of getting fatter...as of today I'm weighing in at 195 pounds again. I haven't been keeping track of the numbers very well this month but as far as I can tell, I've managed to gain about 10 pounds back in the last 4 -6 weeks.
I've definitely rounded out more and I can feel everything, especially in my belly area, stretching and filling out again. I've had to move up a belt notch already and still my gut is "muffin topping" over it.
I'm on a roll and I sincerely hope I'll be able to keep up this rate of expansion for a few months at least. I really want to break that 200 pound barrier again and start moving up (finally!) into the substantially larger numbers.
Monday, December 10, 2012
Also 10 December 2012
All righty people...I've taken the plunge and added a Paypal donation button to this blog (righthand side...scroll down below "Followers" and there it is...).
Some of you might consider me a whore for doing this. I probably am...at least a little bit...but let's be honest here: in a large way I'm already whoring myself out by sharing my inner thoughts and pictures of my growing body with...let's be honest...a large number of strangers as well as the Internet in general (anyone remember that awesome-not Reddit link to my blog back in December 2010?)
I am *already* so much *out there*.
And I'm NOT suggesting that *anyone* needs to actually *use* the button to partake of this blog.
At this point it means A LOT more to me that people are sharing my experience. This blog is helping me to clarify my own thoughts and to record my own journey into a strange realm that not many others choose to venture into. I am simply adding the button in an attempt to remove part of the financial hurdle to my ability to gain.
Also, consider this: money in this context is an extraordinarily powerful tool for encouragement: every cent donated will be used to purchase extra food that I am honour bound to consume.
Consider the ramifications of this...
Some of you might consider me a whore for doing this. I probably am...at least a little bit...but let's be honest here: in a large way I'm already whoring myself out by sharing my inner thoughts and pictures of my growing body with...let's be honest...a large number of strangers as well as the Internet in general (anyone remember that awesome-not Reddit link to my blog back in December 2010?)
I am *already* so much *out there*.
And I'm NOT suggesting that *anyone* needs to actually *use* the button to partake of this blog.
At this point it means A LOT more to me that people are sharing my experience. This blog is helping me to clarify my own thoughts and to record my own journey into a strange realm that not many others choose to venture into. I am simply adding the button in an attempt to remove part of the financial hurdle to my ability to gain.
Also, consider this: money in this context is an extraordinarily powerful tool for encouragement: every cent donated will be used to purchase extra food that I am honour bound to consume.
Consider the ramifications of this...
10 December 2012
Nothing really dramatic to report today. Just eating as much as I can, as often as I can. Am swallowing down at least one of those improvised Ensure/cream shakes every day...sometimes two but definitely one before bedtime. The extra calories and fat are helping: I'm seeing a slow and steady gain - not as fast as I would like but at least it's progress.
Exactly two years ago I was ten pounds heavier than I am now. I'm still trying to figure out why I dropped the weight. If I'd only stayed on a course of even moderate gaining, say a single pound every week, I'd be SO fat by now.
Ah well. I guess these things happen in their own time. And when I finally do manage to get to my proper weight, it's going to be all that much more gratifying for having waited so long to achieve it!
Though I admit that my mood is a bit foul today. At that dinner last Saturday I'm almost certain I was fed something containing gluten...not by my friends at my first meal, but at the official second meal put on by the people running the hall. It was only one bite of a tart crust...but based on how digestively unhappy I'm feeling (as well as feeling a teensy bit depressed for no apparent reason), I'd bet anything it was a regular tart served by accident to me. To be fair, the gluten free ones looked damned near identical to the regular ones! I can totally understand someone grabbing the wrong one in the chaos that always ensues when a volunteer group attempts to feed 200 people at the same time. I'm just uber-grateful that I was so full from the first dinner that I only took a single bite of that "poison" tart...or things would be so much worse for me today.
The effect of gluten on my digestive system is somewhat like throwing a handful of sand into some well oiled gears: the machine keeps working but it's not too happy and runs like crap until the sand works its way out. And that's all I'm going to say about that because I risk taking this blog into some really unsavory and graphic places if I go on into too much detail about what's going on, digestively, for me Suffice to say: if you CAN eat wheat based products with no problem, I envy you! As for me...now it's just a waiting game...and lots of fiber...to help this "sand" work its way out!
Actually, speaking of envy, I confess I'm a little envious of a local gainer I met a few years ago. We were both at about the same place with respect to BMI's (it's the only comparison that even remotely close to accurate because he was five inches taller than me). I just cruised by on Grommr - he's looking fabulous, almost 300 pounds now. And I'm *exactly* the same weight now, as I was when I met him...oh, about three years ago. I don't begrudge him his success. Not one bit! But I really need to get my own butt in gear and keep my commitment to this if I'm ever going to see the same success myself.
Okay, I'll stop whining now. I just needed to put that out there because part of this blog is about sharing what's going on inside my head. Today it's a little dark and rainy in there.
Let's hope for sunny skies tomorrow.
Exactly two years ago I was ten pounds heavier than I am now. I'm still trying to figure out why I dropped the weight. If I'd only stayed on a course of even moderate gaining, say a single pound every week, I'd be SO fat by now.
Ah well. I guess these things happen in their own time. And when I finally do manage to get to my proper weight, it's going to be all that much more gratifying for having waited so long to achieve it!
Though I admit that my mood is a bit foul today. At that dinner last Saturday I'm almost certain I was fed something containing gluten...not by my friends at my first meal, but at the official second meal put on by the people running the hall. It was only one bite of a tart crust...but based on how digestively unhappy I'm feeling (as well as feeling a teensy bit depressed for no apparent reason), I'd bet anything it was a regular tart served by accident to me. To be fair, the gluten free ones looked damned near identical to the regular ones! I can totally understand someone grabbing the wrong one in the chaos that always ensues when a volunteer group attempts to feed 200 people at the same time. I'm just uber-grateful that I was so full from the first dinner that I only took a single bite of that "poison" tart...or things would be so much worse for me today.
The effect of gluten on my digestive system is somewhat like throwing a handful of sand into some well oiled gears: the machine keeps working but it's not too happy and runs like crap until the sand works its way out. And that's all I'm going to say about that because I risk taking this blog into some really unsavory and graphic places if I go on into too much detail about what's going on, digestively, for me Suffice to say: if you CAN eat wheat based products with no problem, I envy you! As for me...now it's just a waiting game...and lots of fiber...to help this "sand" work its way out!
Actually, speaking of envy, I confess I'm a little envious of a local gainer I met a few years ago. We were both at about the same place with respect to BMI's (it's the only comparison that even remotely close to accurate because he was five inches taller than me). I just cruised by on Grommr - he's looking fabulous, almost 300 pounds now. And I'm *exactly* the same weight now, as I was when I met him...oh, about three years ago. I don't begrudge him his success. Not one bit! But I really need to get my own butt in gear and keep my commitment to this if I'm ever going to see the same success myself.
Okay, I'll stop whining now. I just needed to put that out there because part of this blog is about sharing what's going on inside my head. Today it's a little dark and rainy in there.
Let's hope for sunny skies tomorrow.
Sunday, December 9, 2012
9 December 2012
I have to say I really like the Christmas season, even if only for one thing: it's the only time of year that eating to excess appears to be openly encouraged. Seriously think about it: Thanksgiving is just one day. Christmas is a whole month of parties, cookies, chocolates, multiple dinners with various family members...
I went to a 200+ person Christmas party last night at a recreational group I belong to and managed to stuff myself with some amazing food a friend had made and brought especially for the three of us who are gluten free. She made everything that was on the regular menu, but gluten free. For scheduling reasons that included a sick cat at home, we ate early and they left early. Then, to my surprise, the people cooking the regular dinner had also made accomodation for the gluten free people (apparently there were others in the crowd I didn't know about) and I was good-naturedly forced to stuff down a second large meal about two hours later. Seriously, it was a gainer's dream scenario and also one of the few times being celiac has actually worked in my favour as a gainer!
Got home, went to sleep, woke up six hours later...hungry. Which is really good news to me because I swear I must have eaten almost whole day's worth of "regular person" (ie. non-gainer) food with those two combined dinners.
Being hungry now...so soon...I'm ecstatic that my body is FINALLY getting used to the extra calories and has now come to demand them. I'd really like to keep up with 4000 calories a day and, when I'm sure I've gotten firmly in the habit, build on that. I'm not sure realistically how much food a person can eat in a day and still find time to go to work at a physically busy job and do all the other stuff life demands but I guess the only way to find out is to try. Regardless I'm feeling hugely encouraged by my newly acquired capacity for so much more food!
And I'm getting creative at finding quick, easy and, most important of all, palatable ways to slam back hundreds of calories without ending up painfully bloated. My most recent invention is probably not news to anyone else but I'm quite proud of it: a version of a gainer shake that uses a 235ml bottle of Ensure Plus Calories (still available in Canada...for now at least) in a 400 ml glass, with the glass topped up to the brim with 35% heavy cream. It's an excellent combination because it's super easy to prepare and the strong flavour of the Ensure (I'm currently using chocolate flavour) masks the somewhat cloying nature of the cream. It ends up being a rich milkshake that goes down really easily and doesn't cause too much bloat. I just ran the numbers and each one of those shakes ends up being 903 calories at a cost that comes in about the same as a McDonald's milkshake and with the convenience factor of being able to have them conveniently available anytime of the day without having to go out into the mind-numbing cold and get one. I'm trying to drink two of these shakes each day. I'm happy too because the Ensure has some vitamins and nutrients...something I feel I'm missing sometimes when I gaining hard and a 200 calorie salad starts to seem like a waste of time and effort (don't worry, I've found a way to work salad and veggies into my diet as well...)
Something else I did yesterday that I'm proud of, and yes I admit slightly titillated by, was that I was able for the first time in my life to be positively affirming with people I know in the real world - friends as well as relative strangers - about the fact that I know I'm getting fat, that I will likely be even fatter the next time I see most of them, and that I'm absolutely okay if I end up gaining a whole lot of weight, if that's what going off one's diet means. I stopped just short of saying that I am actually working hard to make this weight gain a reality because I don't want to come across as a freak to people who might not "get" or agree with what I'm doing. Also, my weight gain so far doesn't have much impact right now because a lot of these people knew me during that brief time a couple of years ago when I managed to get my weight up to 202 lbs...and even at that weight I was only JUST starting to really be what I'd consider actually fat and not just the husky/chubster thing I'm rocking right now. I guess I just want to lay the groundwork so people aren't too shocked or worried as I begin to seriously pack on the pounds. And next year, hopefully, I want to roll into that same Christmas party, seventy pounds heavier and sporting what I hope by then will be an awesomely large and round belly.
I'm going to continue my efforts at self affirmation with others, as the topic comes up, and even with people with whom this will be a very hard and intense conversation. It's a good exercise, not just for my relationships with others but also as an affirimation to my self. I've always been "closeted" about gaining and, although I'm never going to be the poster child for the gainer community, I really do think it's time I start to openly "own" this aspect of myself. Especially since the more successful I am, and the fatter I get, the more obvious it is going to be that something's up with me. I don't want shame or fear of what other people might be thinking about what I'm doing to continue to be a hurdle to my success at something I admit I've always wanted for myself. And, so far with the very few people I've "come out" to (other than, for example anonymously online here...which don't get me wrong has been an amazing experience but isn't a substitute for honesty in one's face-to face relationships), the reaction hasn't been nearly as negative as I would have thought. In fact, it's kind of been a non-issue, which is weird because it's always been such a huge deal (no pun intended) for me!
Wow. I'm actually hungry again...
I went to a 200+ person Christmas party last night at a recreational group I belong to and managed to stuff myself with some amazing food a friend had made and brought especially for the three of us who are gluten free. She made everything that was on the regular menu, but gluten free. For scheduling reasons that included a sick cat at home, we ate early and they left early. Then, to my surprise, the people cooking the regular dinner had also made accomodation for the gluten free people (apparently there were others in the crowd I didn't know about) and I was good-naturedly forced to stuff down a second large meal about two hours later. Seriously, it was a gainer's dream scenario and also one of the few times being celiac has actually worked in my favour as a gainer!
Got home, went to sleep, woke up six hours later...hungry. Which is really good news to me because I swear I must have eaten almost whole day's worth of "regular person" (ie. non-gainer) food with those two combined dinners.
Being hungry now...so soon...I'm ecstatic that my body is FINALLY getting used to the extra calories and has now come to demand them. I'd really like to keep up with 4000 calories a day and, when I'm sure I've gotten firmly in the habit, build on that. I'm not sure realistically how much food a person can eat in a day and still find time to go to work at a physically busy job and do all the other stuff life demands but I guess the only way to find out is to try. Regardless I'm feeling hugely encouraged by my newly acquired capacity for so much more food!
And I'm getting creative at finding quick, easy and, most important of all, palatable ways to slam back hundreds of calories without ending up painfully bloated. My most recent invention is probably not news to anyone else but I'm quite proud of it: a version of a gainer shake that uses a 235ml bottle of Ensure Plus Calories (still available in Canada...for now at least) in a 400 ml glass, with the glass topped up to the brim with 35% heavy cream. It's an excellent combination because it's super easy to prepare and the strong flavour of the Ensure (I'm currently using chocolate flavour) masks the somewhat cloying nature of the cream. It ends up being a rich milkshake that goes down really easily and doesn't cause too much bloat. I just ran the numbers and each one of those shakes ends up being 903 calories at a cost that comes in about the same as a McDonald's milkshake and with the convenience factor of being able to have them conveniently available anytime of the day without having to go out into the mind-numbing cold and get one. I'm trying to drink two of these shakes each day. I'm happy too because the Ensure has some vitamins and nutrients...something I feel I'm missing sometimes when I gaining hard and a 200 calorie salad starts to seem like a waste of time and effort (don't worry, I've found a way to work salad and veggies into my diet as well...)
Something else I did yesterday that I'm proud of, and yes I admit slightly titillated by, was that I was able for the first time in my life to be positively affirming with people I know in the real world - friends as well as relative strangers - about the fact that I know I'm getting fat, that I will likely be even fatter the next time I see most of them, and that I'm absolutely okay if I end up gaining a whole lot of weight, if that's what going off one's diet means. I stopped just short of saying that I am actually working hard to make this weight gain a reality because I don't want to come across as a freak to people who might not "get" or agree with what I'm doing. Also, my weight gain so far doesn't have much impact right now because a lot of these people knew me during that brief time a couple of years ago when I managed to get my weight up to 202 lbs...and even at that weight I was only JUST starting to really be what I'd consider actually fat and not just the husky/chubster thing I'm rocking right now. I guess I just want to lay the groundwork so people aren't too shocked or worried as I begin to seriously pack on the pounds. And next year, hopefully, I want to roll into that same Christmas party, seventy pounds heavier and sporting what I hope by then will be an awesomely large and round belly.
I'm going to continue my efforts at self affirmation with others, as the topic comes up, and even with people with whom this will be a very hard and intense conversation. It's a good exercise, not just for my relationships with others but also as an affirimation to my self. I've always been "closeted" about gaining and, although I'm never going to be the poster child for the gainer community, I really do think it's time I start to openly "own" this aspect of myself. Especially since the more successful I am, and the fatter I get, the more obvious it is going to be that something's up with me. I don't want shame or fear of what other people might be thinking about what I'm doing to continue to be a hurdle to my success at something I admit I've always wanted for myself. And, so far with the very few people I've "come out" to (other than, for example anonymously online here...which don't get me wrong has been an amazing experience but isn't a substitute for honesty in one's face-to face relationships), the reaction hasn't been nearly as negative as I would have thought. In fact, it's kind of been a non-issue, which is weird because it's always been such a huge deal (no pun intended) for me!
Wow. I'm actually hungry again...
Monday, December 3, 2012
3 December 2012
Here's how things have been going:
I had four days off over the Remembrance Day weekend and I devoted them almost entirely to eating. I managed to get a few 4000 calorie days in, however, once I got back to working full time hours the opportunities to eat were somewhat lessened and since then have been on either a maintenance/slow gain diet.
And I *have* gained weight...well, fat at least. For the week after the four day eating extravaganza, the scale numbers actually went *down* in spite of the fact that my belly definitely got bigger. I chalk it up to the fact that while sitting for four days in front of the computer and television doing nothing but eating did wonders for my ability to get fatter, it didn't do so much for my overall health or muscle tone.
The last couple of weeks my objective (scale) weight has gone up seven pounds and I've managed to hang on to all the fat I gained and didn't just turn it back into calf muscle (so much of this job depends on pushing heavy items over long distances. If I ever get fired, I'll be able to absolutely kick it in shopping cart races).
I'm looking at ways to vary my diet. I know the last time I was able to gain a substantial amount of weight it was partly because I had free access to literally pounds and pounds of high quality chocolate. Sadly, the chocolate is gone and if I want to get more, I'm going to have to pay for it this time (the last time was a hugely generous gift). Although I think it's tacky for people to put up "pay to watch me gain" websites, I *am* starting to understand the practicality of it. Gaining requires eating a substantially lot more food than I do regularly. Gaining on the gluten free diet severely restricts my access to cheap, easy carbohydrates (virtually every fast food chain is off limits to me) and there's a great deal of planning that has to take place if I'm not going to break our bank account. Also, right now my paycheque is supporting not just me, but another person and two animals. I'm not complaining about money (or lack of it) but I admit I'm kind of stumped as to how to vary my diet and how to provide myself convenient access to reasonably priced food that won't make me sick.
Anyway, if anyone's got any helpful suggestions, I'd love to hear them...
And now I'm off to eat a pot of white rice with ground up flax and coconut milk...
I had four days off over the Remembrance Day weekend and I devoted them almost entirely to eating. I managed to get a few 4000 calorie days in, however, once I got back to working full time hours the opportunities to eat were somewhat lessened and since then have been on either a maintenance/slow gain diet.
And I *have* gained weight...well, fat at least. For the week after the four day eating extravaganza, the scale numbers actually went *down* in spite of the fact that my belly definitely got bigger. I chalk it up to the fact that while sitting for four days in front of the computer and television doing nothing but eating did wonders for my ability to get fatter, it didn't do so much for my overall health or muscle tone.
The last couple of weeks my objective (scale) weight has gone up seven pounds and I've managed to hang on to all the fat I gained and didn't just turn it back into calf muscle (so much of this job depends on pushing heavy items over long distances. If I ever get fired, I'll be able to absolutely kick it in shopping cart races).
I'm looking at ways to vary my diet. I know the last time I was able to gain a substantial amount of weight it was partly because I had free access to literally pounds and pounds of high quality chocolate. Sadly, the chocolate is gone and if I want to get more, I'm going to have to pay for it this time (the last time was a hugely generous gift). Although I think it's tacky for people to put up "pay to watch me gain" websites, I *am* starting to understand the practicality of it. Gaining requires eating a substantially lot more food than I do regularly. Gaining on the gluten free diet severely restricts my access to cheap, easy carbohydrates (virtually every fast food chain is off limits to me) and there's a great deal of planning that has to take place if I'm not going to break our bank account. Also, right now my paycheque is supporting not just me, but another person and two animals. I'm not complaining about money (or lack of it) but I admit I'm kind of stumped as to how to vary my diet and how to provide myself convenient access to reasonably priced food that won't make me sick.
Anyway, if anyone's got any helpful suggestions, I'd love to hear them...
And now I'm off to eat a pot of white rice with ground up flax and coconut milk...
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