Too...much...butter...!
Actually, it's more the fact that there's so much salt in that stuff. I guess it really is meant to be a condiment and not a main dish.
A good experiment but I don't think I'll try that again. I'm going to stick to just putting a little bit in everything I eat, and eating more of everything in general...
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
7 February 2012
So as of today I'm consistently weighing in at 196 pounds. And it shows - I'm overjoyed with the view when I look down and I can see how swollen my stomach is getting.
I'm back into gaining mode, trying to get back up over 200 pounds again so that I can start breaking new ground. This afternoon I ate some mashed potatoes with a half pound of butter (yes, I measured...this is no exaggeration).
So far feeling okay but going to take it easy for the next few hours just in case it's too much fat all at once (I still gag a little when I remember the liter of vegetable oil I once drank...and how gloriously I vomited for what felt like days...but I'm sure was only for a few hours).
I'm thinking of trying to consume more butter each day on top of what I regularly eat. I realize this sounds radical but remember that my diet is limited: very little fast food, not much in the way of donuts or cookies (where most other people get their fat overload from), no cake unless I feel like splurging for a $8 gluten free version of an 8"x8" sheet cake, etc.
Butter really is a cost effective solution. Of course it will be interesting to see how this will impact my cholesterol levels (I'm still not entirely convinced that intake of dietary fat is linked to elevated cholesterol...but I guess we'll find out)
I'm back into gaining mode, trying to get back up over 200 pounds again so that I can start breaking new ground. This afternoon I ate some mashed potatoes with a half pound of butter (yes, I measured...this is no exaggeration).
So far feeling okay but going to take it easy for the next few hours just in case it's too much fat all at once (I still gag a little when I remember the liter of vegetable oil I once drank...and how gloriously I vomited for what felt like days...but I'm sure was only for a few hours).
I'm thinking of trying to consume more butter each day on top of what I regularly eat. I realize this sounds radical but remember that my diet is limited: very little fast food, not much in the way of donuts or cookies (where most other people get their fat overload from), no cake unless I feel like splurging for a $8 gluten free version of an 8"x8" sheet cake, etc.
Butter really is a cost effective solution. Of course it will be interesting to see how this will impact my cholesterol levels (I'm still not entirely convinced that intake of dietary fat is linked to elevated cholesterol...but I guess we'll find out)
Friday, February 3, 2012
3 February 2012
So as promised, here are some progress shots. I apologize for the primitive cutting and pasting - I'm using Paintbrush for this. It's not sophisticated but it gets the job done.
As you can see, I'm getting rounder. The top two pictures of the series are 190 and 195 pounds and the bottom, for comparison's sake, is what I looked like at 184 pounds.
I realize these aren't huge jumps in weight compared to what I was hoping for by this time (I should have been 210 pounds by now). The charts and graphs kind of went out the window after Christmas. With all the stuff that was taking up my time attention, I'm actually really pleased that I was able to make it to 195 without any real conscious effort on my part (other than eating as much as I could, as often as I could).
And although it's not a huge gain, I certainly do feel bigger. I'm starting to look thicker all over now but most of the extra mass is going to my belly. It's really getting heavy now, starting to hang down a bit. I love how wide my stomach is getting, how I'm finally properly filling out my XL t-shirts. I can totally see a time when they're going to be as tight on me as the L's are on me now.
And on the topic of clothing: I never did get out to buy new pants. Instead I compromised by moving the buttons on them. I gained an inch of waist size on them and put off the inevitable expenditure for a little while yet...though I'm not sure how much longer because they're already starting to feel tight again.
Anyway, I'm off to eat some more. While I'm pleased with my progress so far...how I look...how it feels to (finally!) be getting fat...I know I don't want to stop until I'm a LOT bigger than I am right now.
Monday, January 23, 2012
23 January 2012
There really isn't much to report yet. I'm still around 194. Interestingly, all my pants have become too tight. I'm not sure what's going on...except that maybe I'm developing some abdominal muscles under the flab. Anyway, I guess today it's off to get some new pants (size 40, in case you're curious...)
Saturday, January 14, 2012
14 January 2012
Hello everyone...
I AM still around. I just took a little break from the gaining for a couple of weeks.
Christmas was painful, to say the least. Christmas dinner was with the in-laws and the whole scene was just one huge illustration as to why it's SO much better to save one's pennies and simply flee to some tropical locale for the last two weeks of each year.
There was a LOT of food at the dinner and I ended up with two thin pieces of ham, some bad cole slaw, and mashed potatoes. There was so much food there that I simply couldn't eat because it had been made with things poisonous to me (gluten): perogies, cabbage rolls, scalloped cheese potatoes, etc. As soon as we showed up there I knew it was going to be a bad scene: there were plates and plates full of cookies and cheese and other treats and the only thing that was gluten free (or wasn't cross-contaminated with something with gluten in it) was the pickled fish. And even that...based on how wretched I felt the next morning...may have had a passing acquaintance with gluten. It was almost comical (at least it would have been had I not been so hungry) when the mother in law comes out with her only accomodation to me...I swear...possibly the only NON-celiac friendly rice crackers in the world.
Anyway, that's all I'm going to say about that...other than: next year I'm going to eat Christmas dinner at home and simply have drinks with the family.
Well, one more thing: Christmas is a very hard time of year for me. I don't know why. Nothing bad ever happened to me at Christmas. I just find the whole thing to be forced and filled with artificial joy. I could easily skip the whole mess and not miss it one bit.
So I fell off the "gaining train" for the last couple of weeks. In fact earlier this week I was at work feeling vague and fuzzy and having a hard time concentrating. For the longest time I couldn't figure out what was going on (thought I was getting sick). Then I realized I was hungry! It'd been so long since I was hungry I guess I forgot what it felt like. I started ramping up my food intake again and have been feeling better.
And for the record, I haven't actually gained any weight since my last post (still a solid 194) but at least have not lost any weight either.
This week I'm going to work on getting back into the swing of things...
I AM still around. I just took a little break from the gaining for a couple of weeks.
Christmas was painful, to say the least. Christmas dinner was with the in-laws and the whole scene was just one huge illustration as to why it's SO much better to save one's pennies and simply flee to some tropical locale for the last two weeks of each year.
There was a LOT of food at the dinner and I ended up with two thin pieces of ham, some bad cole slaw, and mashed potatoes. There was so much food there that I simply couldn't eat because it had been made with things poisonous to me (gluten): perogies, cabbage rolls, scalloped cheese potatoes, etc. As soon as we showed up there I knew it was going to be a bad scene: there were plates and plates full of cookies and cheese and other treats and the only thing that was gluten free (or wasn't cross-contaminated with something with gluten in it) was the pickled fish. And even that...based on how wretched I felt the next morning...may have had a passing acquaintance with gluten. It was almost comical (at least it would have been had I not been so hungry) when the mother in law comes out with her only accomodation to me...I swear...possibly the only NON-celiac friendly rice crackers in the world.
Anyway, that's all I'm going to say about that...other than: next year I'm going to eat Christmas dinner at home and simply have drinks with the family.
Well, one more thing: Christmas is a very hard time of year for me. I don't know why. Nothing bad ever happened to me at Christmas. I just find the whole thing to be forced and filled with artificial joy. I could easily skip the whole mess and not miss it one bit.
So I fell off the "gaining train" for the last couple of weeks. In fact earlier this week I was at work feeling vague and fuzzy and having a hard time concentrating. For the longest time I couldn't figure out what was going on (thought I was getting sick). Then I realized I was hungry! It'd been so long since I was hungry I guess I forgot what it felt like. I started ramping up my food intake again and have been feeling better.
And for the record, I haven't actually gained any weight since my last post (still a solid 194) but at least have not lost any weight either.
This week I'm going to work on getting back into the swing of things...
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
27 December 2011
Happy holidays...whatever you celebrate...
That being said, I'm so happy Christmas is over again for another year. I know. Bah humbug and all that...
Without going into the gory details, suffice to say that it's a special kind of torture doing the rounds of the family's houses and being presented with trays and trays piled high with delicacies that one cannot enjoy due to dietary restrictions (gluten). And there's nothing sadder than leaving Christmas dinner hungry because of a miscommunication with respect to ingredients.
Ah well. This too shall pass...hopefully next year will be different.
A quick update: still 194. It seems that when I leave the structure and routine of work, my own special diet falls by the wayside.
Now I've got to see what I can do to fix that.
That being said, I'm so happy Christmas is over again for another year. I know. Bah humbug and all that...
Without going into the gory details, suffice to say that it's a special kind of torture doing the rounds of the family's houses and being presented with trays and trays piled high with delicacies that one cannot enjoy due to dietary restrictions (gluten). And there's nothing sadder than leaving Christmas dinner hungry because of a miscommunication with respect to ingredients.
Ah well. This too shall pass...hopefully next year will be different.
A quick update: still 194. It seems that when I leave the structure and routine of work, my own special diet falls by the wayside.
Now I've got to see what I can do to fix that.
Monday, December 19, 2011
19 December 2011
Well, I'm pretty consistently 194 now.
The gain is progressing. Mind you, it's not going as quickly as I'd like...but that being said, it's giving me time to get used to being heavier.
I'm getting into the groove of eating a lot more. Now if I skimp and fall short of my basic needs, I get super starvingly hungry. It's an excellent reminder to keep eating.
Over the next few weeks I'm going to work at ways of increasing my intake back to the recommended values on the spreadsheet. When I set up the spreadsheet, I was aiming for 1/3 of a pound gained per day. The reality over the last few weeks has been closer to 1/10 of a pound.
Which, when I think hard about it doesn't make a lot of sense because I've gained at least 10 pounds in the last seven weeks. Then again, math was never one of my strengths.
I guess let's just leave it at this: I'm going to try to eat more and let's see what happens...
The gain is progressing. Mind you, it's not going as quickly as I'd like...but that being said, it's giving me time to get used to being heavier.
I'm getting into the groove of eating a lot more. Now if I skimp and fall short of my basic needs, I get super starvingly hungry. It's an excellent reminder to keep eating.
Over the next few weeks I'm going to work at ways of increasing my intake back to the recommended values on the spreadsheet. When I set up the spreadsheet, I was aiming for 1/3 of a pound gained per day. The reality over the last few weeks has been closer to 1/10 of a pound.
Which, when I think hard about it doesn't make a lot of sense because I've gained at least 10 pounds in the last seven weeks. Then again, math was never one of my strengths.
I guess let's just leave it at this: I'm going to try to eat more and let's see what happens...
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