Friday, September 29, 2017

29 September 2017

Gainer shakes...what an amazing concept.  I've finally found something that works and that does not clog up my plumbing like xanthan gum and carrageenan tend to do.

It's a somewhat nightmarish concoction of cereal cream (18%, just milk and cream with no stabilizers), sweetened condensed milk (a ton of sugar with milk), and pasteurized liquid whole egg.

I don't recommend this for the faint of heart and in truth I have no idea what this much fat and sugar are doing to my circulatory system etc.  The one saving grace is that this is only a temporary dietary change - I won't be eating like this forever, as well as the fact that I'm backing it up with a regular amount of nutritious meals and exercise...exercise that I plan to increase once I'm happy with my size and can figure out the balance between eating enough to staying that fat and exercising enough to stay healthy.

These shakes pack a real whallop when it comes to getting extra calories and judging by how I'm feeling after a couple of weeks of drinking them, I think they're the answer I've been looking for

Yesterday I was able to augment my total daily intake by 3500 calories - this on top of all of my regular eating, snacks, etc.  I estimate I consumed about 5500 calories total in a single day.  For me this is a huge improvement as I usually end up making myself super sick to my stomach and then stop the gain for long enough that I end up dropping a ton of weight and end up near a "normal" BMI again.

If I can continue supplementing enough calories with these shakes that I can cover my basic caloric needs for the day, literally every extra single thing I eat during that day will become fat.

Ideally, if I am able to get to the point that I am consistently consuming 6500 calories a day (and yesterday I was within one serving of shake of doing this), I will gain a pound every single day.   While I know this is extreme,  I've seen others who were successfully able to gain over 100 pounds in a short period of time this way.  I know this will be hard on my body - I'm expecting it and preparing for it as best I can.  I'm ready to be as big as I reasonably can get and I'm prepared to do what it takes to achieve this. 

Added bonus: every day I find I am able to drink a bit more of this shake without feeling too logy to function - it feels almost as though I'm in training as my body gets used to dealing with the onslaught of extra calories.

And it's showing...yesterday a friend jokingly asked me if I was pregnant, because yes, my stomach is stretching out the front of my shirt in a way that's impossible to hide now (not that I'd want to); it's clear to anyone who looks at me that I'm getting fat.






Wednesday, September 27, 2017

27 September 2017

I am now within five pounds of my all time highest weight and I can really feel it in the way my stomach is so round and tight and how my love handles are starting to stick way out.  I LOVE this sensation.

Pushing past my all time high is going to bring some interesting changes, not the least of which - I'm sure - will be some epic stretch marks.

Totally worth it if it means I'm on track for those big gains that will get me where I need to be.

Gaining hard at time when I'm not expending a lot of energy working means I'm getting fat - fast - in all the right places.

Weighed myself after breakfast and am officially 206 pounds.  For now.  By this time next week, at the rate I'm gaining, I expect to be somewhere just shy of 210.

Tuesday, September 26, 2017

26 September 2017

And...I'm back.  Again.

Took the summer off and traveled out to Ontario and then took a rather epic canoe trip.  With all the activity, smaller meals, and less chances to top up my daily caloric intake, I ended up losing weight.

Came back in August at about 195 pounds.  Went back to work for about six weeks of light duty (long story, would make you angry-sad to hear it and even if it didn't, it'd make me angry-sad to recount it here so I'm not going to) and I am now off work for the time being.

What I've discovered is that two of the biggest things hindering my gaining were my spouse (kind of on board but not really "getting" why I'd want to be fat) and my extremely labour intensive job.

My spouse and I separated in May and I now live alone and have full autonomy over what's in the fridge.  I also am no longer get questioned as to the weird concoctions I drink in order to gain.  Right now, in case you're curious, it's a mixture of sweetened condensed milk and cereal cream.  It tastes as disgusting as you'd think but I can keep it down...and it's doing magical things for my waistline.

The other hindrance is my intensely calorie burning job....which I'm not doing right now.  Combine this with the nearly two months of light duty (literally standing in one place for an entire shift) and the fact that I'm making a point of overeating at every meal and adding high fat/high carbohydrate "shakes" into the times in between meals...the gaining process is in high gear right now.

I've put on ten pounds since August and, at 205, my stomach is re-assuming that pleasing, round firmness that I love so much.

And looking here at how much bigger I was at 211 pounds...I can't wait to see what it's going to be like as I push past my previous high and really start to get big.

My plan is to keep gaining at a rate of 8-10 pounds a month.  I honestly think I can keep it up, even after I go back to work because this translates to about 2.5 pounds gained per week.  Although this will result in a dramatic looking gain of over 100 pounds in a year, I think I can handle it.   I'm not sure the people around me are going to be so easy-going about it but I'm to the point that I've really stopped caring about other people's ideas of how I should live my life.

So long as I am able to manage to do my job as well as still be able to do the things that bring joy to my life, I'm going keep getting bigger.

Saturday, May 27, 2017

27 May 2017

And...I'm back.  Hopefully for good.  It's been a year.  I'll leave it at that because I could devote an entire blog just to the stuff that's happened over the past 18 months or so.

Salient fact: having just ended an 18 year relationship, I am now currently single.  I'm not saying this in an effort to find a date or a new partner.  Right now at least I'm content with reorganizing this house (finally!) into a way that works for me and for all the hobbies, etc. that I'm into.  I spend a part of every day breathing a sigh of relief that the clutter is gone, that the unhappiness and frustration has left for greener pastures, and savoring the utter quiet of not having a television and/or cell phone games blaring for 12 hours a day.   There is something extremely valuable about silence.

Added bonus: I now have full control of the fridge and everything in it.  No gluten shall cross the threshold of this house ever again.  I can use all of the kitchen counters with no fear of wheat crumbs finding their way into my food.

And now I can seriously start experimenting with gainer shakes.  I can mix up large quantities to leave in the fridge without anyone questioning what the hell I think I'm doing.

Right now toying with pasturized whole egg product mixed with dairy.  Going to start small with that one and work my way up as I have no idea how eating that much fat in one sitting will affect me.

I'm also making double batches of cookies and freezing half for later consumption - it helps to have them conveniently close at hand.

The idea is to work up to a regular diet of 5,000 calories per day and see where this takes me.

Currently at around 200 pounds.

Saturday, January 16, 2016

16 January 2016

And once again I've proven what a terrible blogger I truly am...

In the past four months my dog died.  And then my mother died.  It's been a rough time.

I'm back now though.  And I wish I could say in the intervening time that I'd stress eaten gained a ton of weight...but that would be a lie.  I'm still hovering around 200 pounds with the solid hope of getting bigger.

This coming week I've been volun-told that I have to spend a week in the office doing paperwork and I know that any time not spent on the work floor is generally a good time to gain.  I'm planning to stock up on snacks and stuff and see if I can put on a couple of pounds this week.

While I'm looking forward to the big gains, I think at this point I'm going to focus on whatever baby steps I can make.  Maybe by celebrating the small victories I can build up enough steam to tackle the bigger gains.

As always, words of encouragement are greatly appreciated.  Feel free to drop me a line at roundboy123456@yahoo.ca

Until later (hopefully not too much later!)...

Saturday, May 9, 2015

9 May 2015

And...I'm back...

And sadly to say not much has changed.  I'm still maintaining at a bit over 200 pounds.  I'm still eating what I consider to be crazy amounts of high fat, high carbohydrate food but am burning it off about as quickly as I eat it.  I was actually slowly losing weight in March/April until I got a bump from being off the work floor for a few weeks in classes, etc.and managed to gain about five pounds back.  And I guess to be fair, it's been a hellishly hectic time at work, as well as at home.  I have big hopes for the summer, especially since I've been able to wrangle a few weeks off.  More time to eat, less actual work being done should = some extra pounds.

That being said, I really DO have to start getting creative about gaining over the long term.  I'm either going to have to seriously 'up' my efforts with getting sufficient calories into me to start making progress or else I'm going to have to start taking it easier at work.  I guess doing both would be ideal and I guess I need to figure out exactly how to do that.

I'm still holding out hope of being able to find someone locally who would be willing to help me out.  I've met some very nice people through Grommr, etc but so far haven't been able to connect with someone who's really willing to go 'there' with me and really get me gaining.  I kind of think at this point it's just a fantasy to expect anything like this to happen but, like I said, I still choose to have hope...


Wednesday, February 18, 2015

18 February 2015

So now that I'm back in the saddle with respect to gaining, I admit I find myself wondering just how much further I could push myself...or I guess more correctly BE pushed...if I could connect with someone who would be willing to take me on as a 'project' and be aggressive about getting me to fatten up fast.

I know I've put out feelers for encouragers before and I definitely have a good working relationship with a few guys locally, but sometimes I find myself wishing there was someone out there who would be willing to help me take my gain to the extreme.

Imagine how much good even one solid feeding session a week would do...